So, that ISP meeting… I had a feeling something like this would happen…
My staff has read my blog and was upset with some of what they read. They are professionals, and if anyone read what I wrote, they could be looked down upon. Also, I (completely unknowingly) incorrectly reported information (there was no HIPAA violation and no excessive smoking on anyone’s part). Their feelings and reputations were hurt.
I have privately, and will now publically, apologize. It was never my intention to hurt anyone’s feelings or misreport. But then, that’s never my intention, and I seem to do it all the time. I have removed the post in question and all references to names of any of my staff.
I do believe I’ve said this a few times before, but I will say it again lest anyone has missed it: I don’t pretend to totally accurately report anything, because I know I often don’t. This blog is, and was meant to be, my perspective on myself and my suroundings. I misinterpret a lot, because fact is, I’m confused by a lot of what goes on around me. I became so completely overwhelmed at the meeting tonight that at different points, I was crying and screaming at people. It was a side of me my staff has never seen before. I so wish I could say that it will be the last time.
It also came up that I am not allowed to fall asleep for any period of time when staff is here. Apparently, whoever created this rule has never taken Geodon, eh? So, we might back down by hours, because I simply can’t keep up. I’m spending my evenings melting down, because I’m engaged so much during the day. It was questioned whether it would even be allowable for me to take a 10-minute break every hour and “zone out” on my computer or whatever with absolutely no talking from staff… and to be honest, I’m not clear on what was decided.
I’m kind of having second thoughts about my blog in general. Honestly, I don’t know if I can keep from hurting feelings in the future. The problem with not knowing what isn’t appropriate to say, while simultaneously being less-than-accurate at times to the objective truth… well… it’s a stormy way to be.